I'm an ordinary girl and I believe that we all have the right to a beautiful life. So this blog consists my rants about everything,youtubers, crushes, fandoms and more.
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Heart broken but stay strong
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My crush told me that he would rather marry a sea horse than me ! So stay strong all you beautiful girls and boys who have crushes.
I have a pattern. Every time I am falling down a spiral, I write this stupid blog. It's like an addiction I can't remember a time when I didn't have this blog to rant through a shitty arrangement of words. I'm in that phase of my life where I have to take a major life decision. As a girl who is just starting out my adult life and has made 4 life changing decisions already. I want the world to have the courtesy to stop. And just freeze. Every where I go I have the words marriage, career, babies and future thrown at me. People in uni already know if they want to get married and have babies and have the job of their dreams and then there's me who celebrated making a meal that didn't come out of a box. I wanted to take a gap year but how dare I spend time on trying to figure myself out and trying to understand who I am as a person. But instead I forced on the rat race I call life where I'll have to work till I die. And the one day I will cease to exist ...
I started this blog as a 12 year old with problems. At first I posted sad and brooding messages about life. As I grew up it just got worse. I just felt empty. I still do. But the difference is this time I'm trying to be happy. I turned 18 recently and for the first time in a long time I feel something close to happiness. I feel at ease. I still doubt myself and I hate myself on most days. But I'm trying very hard to be happy. But I feel better sometimes and lighter. The weight on my back seems to get less everyday.It's not a major change. But it is helping. I have let go of all the toxic people in my life. I have let go of a lot of things that harm me I am trying to loose weight I am working on bettering myself I am trying to be happy. I really am
The sun came up finally It seemed like I lasted through the night I thanked some mystic force that saved me from myself As I walked down the halls with tears in my eyes As I saw him there Smiling without me It lead to the my nights where I cried where I questioned life When I almost ended it Why does he look happy with her? Should I miss him? Does he miss me? I loved him I love him But Im dust in the wind to him Guys Anyone want to submit some poems to me tell me X Anne/Andrea :D
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